I can get you chocolates, I can get you flowers,
I can jump around the world and call for you from all the towers.
I can write you letters, I can blurt out songs,
I can try to make up for all that I have done wrong.
I love you so, and I want you to know,
though you ask this of me, I can't just let go.
I just hope you know how I feel for you girl,
you are the only one I love in this world.
When you look at me the whole world seems to stop,
And everything and everyone else seems like a prop.
Everytime I have to watch you go,
It puts me down in a brand new low.
I wanna take you dancing in the rain,
But you'd simply say whats in it to gain.
so instead I take you to every botique in town,
so you would never look at me and frown.
I am not a poyet, but I write this to you,
I am sorry if these are only few things that I can do.
Forgive me June for all I have done wrong,
You know that to only you I belong.
So please June lets stop this fight,
And try to make everything between us right.
There is no one else in this but you and I,
so please June lets stop all the lie.
I hope someday you would give us a chance,
I promise to treat you better than the Queen of France.
And please don't ever say we are thru,
When there is so much still between me and you.
Maybe to you these words don't make sense,
but I mean them with their very essence.
I dont know what more to write to you,
I have run out of words and no longer have a clue....
Nanu
Friday, May 22, 2009
Monday, April 20, 2009
we should have never fought.
I am sorry we should have never fought.
I miss you babe, you are in my every thought.
I dont know why we have days like those,
When we feel so far from being so close.
Anyway lets forget it now,
I hope we make up for it somehow.
You say I act like a girl,
well for you I'll even do the twirl.
I go weak in the knees when you around,
And I maybe act like a big clown.
And if you ever look at me and smile,
it makes all so worthwhile.
I'd get you flowers, I'd get you gold,
I will never break the promises I told.
I'd look in your eyes and kiss your lips,
and touch you gently with my fingertips.
I'd hold you close and never let go,
If just once you asked me so. :-(
I know I have hurt you in the past,
I'd take all the blame for why it didn't last.
you know I have tried to mend my ways,
I know now, without you, how bad are my days.
Without you I still can't sleep.
waking up without you at times I still weep.
Once again I dont know what more to say,
I just hope things would be better someday.
I just hope one day you will see,
The love for you inside of me.
Now I really wish it would rain
And somehow are best days would come again.
I miss you babe, you are in my every thought.
I dont know why we have days like those,
When we feel so far from being so close.
Anyway lets forget it now,
I hope we make up for it somehow.
You say I act like a girl,
well for you I'll even do the twirl.
I go weak in the knees when you around,
And I maybe act like a big clown.
And if you ever look at me and smile,
it makes all so worthwhile.
I'd get you flowers, I'd get you gold,
I will never break the promises I told.
I'd look in your eyes and kiss your lips,
and touch you gently with my fingertips.
I'd hold you close and never let go,
If just once you asked me so. :-(
I know I have hurt you in the past,
I'd take all the blame for why it didn't last.
you know I have tried to mend my ways,
I know now, without you, how bad are my days.
Without you I still can't sleep.
waking up without you at times I still weep.
Once again I dont know what more to say,
I just hope things would be better someday.
I just hope one day you will see,
The love for you inside of me.
Now I really wish it would rain
And somehow are best days would come again.
Thursday, April 2, 2009
All Fools Day
One day to late but thats ok..For a fool like me I dont think days have any meaning. Really if I look at this blog, I dont know what I feel. Its Fucking April, like how many months? Lets see Sep-April is about 7 months, and here I am again just me and my lonely mind. Why the fuck do I do this to myself? Why don't I see the love that I am looking for lies elsewhere?
In this relationship really I dont think I have left any stone unturned. Yes she accuses me of everything, of being unfair to her, of hurting her, of making her have the worst time in her life, of the things I don't even know, Whereas I since the day I met her I have never even kissed another woman, or even gone close, I have never even lied, I have really believed in us, and I have tried to do all I could. Yes I am not the best person in the world, no I am not, but really to her I try to be the best I can. What did I not do? I took her everywhere I could, where ever we could afford to go we went. How muchI could afford for us I tried, took up a place she liked too, and I tried.
Why do I have write this shit on my stupid blog. Who cares really who the fuck cares what I write here. For all anyone cares is if I even lived or died. I am hopelessly in love with this girl who I doesn't give a shit about me, who has told me over and over again that. The worst fuckin part is I have lost o much of myself in this that I dont even know what makes me happy.
Today is supposed to be the best day in my life. I got paid the most ever. And here I am doing what? crying? Fuck me I really suck!!!
In this relationship really I dont think I have left any stone unturned. Yes she accuses me of everything, of being unfair to her, of hurting her, of making her have the worst time in her life, of the things I don't even know, Whereas I since the day I met her I have never even kissed another woman, or even gone close, I have never even lied, I have really believed in us, and I have tried to do all I could. Yes I am not the best person in the world, no I am not, but really to her I try to be the best I can. What did I not do? I took her everywhere I could, where ever we could afford to go we went. How muchI could afford for us I tried, took up a place she liked too, and I tried.
Why do I have write this shit on my stupid blog. Who cares really who the fuck cares what I write here. For all anyone cares is if I even lived or died. I am hopelessly in love with this girl who I doesn't give a shit about me, who has told me over and over again that. The worst fuckin part is I have lost o much of myself in this that I dont even know what makes me happy.
Today is supposed to be the best day in my life. I got paid the most ever. And here I am doing what? crying? Fuck me I really suck!!!
Tuesday, March 17, 2009
What is love?
There is a time, a time for love.
Love comes, but can be over in a moment.
But remembered, remembered always,
So take the chance, once past these
moments can never be regained,
Life moves on;
Love, Love you all demanding, all consuming,
all destroying.
With passions that delight the body but
devour the mind, put thoughts in confusion;
make right and wrong indefinable.
Love, love makes the rules;
Love is cruel, selfish, blind heedless
of consequence.
For if just one face can fill your mind,
one smile, one look across the room,
elate your every sense, then this is love;
perhaps unattainable to touch, but
without words or terms, you are as one:
Love is life, without it there is nothing.
But if this face can bring torment, anger, pain!
Can this also be love?
"the question is irrelevant, the answer in
the heart, for indiscretions, faults, are
overlooked; in love the eyes are closed and
see only what they wish."
Love is many emotions:
But if when you met this face, this face
who's lips arouse, who's hands caress, who's
body fulfils: your senses reel, all is past,
time stands still: then this, this is love.
Love may remain, or grow cold, but "tis
better to have loved and lost, than to
have never loved"
Love comes, but can be over in a moment.
But remembered, remembered always,
So take the chance, once past these
moments can never be regained,
Life moves on;
Love, Love you all demanding, all consuming,
all destroying.
With passions that delight the body but
devour the mind, put thoughts in confusion;
make right and wrong indefinable.
Love, love makes the rules;
Love is cruel, selfish, blind heedless
of consequence.
For if just one face can fill your mind,
one smile, one look across the room,
elate your every sense, then this is love;
perhaps unattainable to touch, but
without words or terms, you are as one:
Love is life, without it there is nothing.
But if this face can bring torment, anger, pain!
Can this also be love?
"the question is irrelevant, the answer in
the heart, for indiscretions, faults, are
overlooked; in love the eyes are closed and
see only what they wish."
Love is many emotions:
But if when you met this face, this face
who's lips arouse, who's hands caress, who's
body fulfils: your senses reel, all is past,
time stands still: then this, this is love.
Love may remain, or grow cold, but "tis
better to have loved and lost, than to
have never loved"
Monday, March 16, 2009
let me recollect the month
June,
One day before valentines you tell me you would like to see me, I like a retard go out and am so happy,
Go out get whatever you wished for, and believe that you are on your college trip. Later I learn it is all lies you tell me,
I dont say anything yes I am mad at you for lieing to me, but what can I say right? I am no one to you. Like a retard I go
and smell all the perfumes you wanted, and choose something we both liked and in return I get what from you June,
I get lies from you telling me you on a college trip.
Then you come back, and you call me accuse me of telling your Mom etc, I dont say anything even then.
Then you spend time with me, and we say we will make things better between us and see where it leads us,
and yes I feel we are making progress.
Then you mail Pawan from my place thinking I am a sleep, and even though I know about it, you constantly lie to me about it,
I dont say anything even though I know you lie to me so much to my face, even when I confront you, you lie to me about it.
Why June, what do you want from me?
Then YOU tell me you would like to come out partying even when Aliya etc are in town with me, as we are trying to make
things better and who cared as long as we were happy together, that very night you again push me away, slam the door on me
and throw me out of your house!! I am really upset that day too and you know it, but the next day I didnt say anything did I?
Infact I called you again, like a retard cause you said you were sorry, and we go out to Gaia etc and then again you tell me you
dont want to be close to me in public cause maybe I am not good enough for you now, caue maybe when yuo with me you dont
get the attention from all other men, or maybe I will ask who they are. Why did you want to meet Aliya etc and chill with me last
weekend if you anyway wanted nothing from me? Do you know what it has been not only for me, but from Aliya and Aly when you left me it
wasn't really nice you know and they both were really on my side and for you I even lied to my closet friends, and explained to them that we
are happy together etc, I didnt explain to them lies did I?
Then we have a nice week together, you call me for dinner even, and come by whenever you want too, and we spend so much time together,
We make love, and hold eachother close you give me silence in return to my I love you's and still I hold you close, and not even shed a tear,
believing that somehow somewhere you too do love me, and then a few hours later I am again no one to you?
We spend all week together, we hug at the station, and I drop you off, and you seem happy, I even had tears in my eyes dropping you off,
but to you they don't mean anything you tell me I am not your boyfriend and thats why I can't come, I dont say anything I simply accept what my fate is,
and drive back to my office, who cares about me right as long as Cinderella/SnowWhite/SleepingBeauty is having fun. I even go out get you whatever you might need there,
your lenses, we look for your cream I try to get you anything you might need there to be happy and have fun. You tell me you will call how many times?
And really I can probably count the number of times you have called me on one hand. You tell me you didnt have your phone and missed me, why June when
you actions speak so much louder than words? Why June do you do this to me?
You get back, I pick you up cause yes I missed you a lot, and I ask you if it is possible to maybe spend the day with you? What do you do?
You dont even care if I am taking a day off to spend with you, and do things YOU want to do. What do you do? You simply forget all about it and pass out?
Do you know how I feel to call your Mom and ask for you? It is horrible but I thought you wanted to see me thats why...And then again what do I do? NOTHING
I dont even say anything, yes I am a bit hurt that I take a day off for you, when you know I am not really allowed to, and you dont even care.
Then the next day you cal and come by, you offer to pick me up and even drop me off. You come by and chill on facebook, and play on the comp and are gone
before or as soon as I get home, how should I feel, should I feel you came to meet me or to update your facebook, and play your games? I want to spend time wth you,
so I even like to go shoppinjg with your Mom just cause I want to learn more about you, justcause I want to understand you better, just cause I want to break the walls we
have built, I try to do everything June.
Then we go out wth your friends, it is fine with me I am happy as long as you are. I dont come close to you or even touch you. Why June thought I wanted to
it is cause you had warned me before not to do so. And I keep my distance, and stil that is too much for you. If you dont remember I told you I didnt want to go out with you,
cause I feel you just push me away and it is not nice try to remember. Did I not discuss that? But who cares right as long as you are having fun.
Then we dont get 5 mins together maybe all day on saturday when you even promised we would do something for us that night, and what is that something for us June, it
is somehting for you and Mr XYZ whoever you pick for the night, and tell me I am not good enough to enter with you. I am good enough to make love to you, or for you have
sex with you but I am not good enough to be seen around in public with you? Think about how you treat me.
You sent me atleast 5 I am sorry yesterday for not spending time with me, for what June? Why do you apologise to me, when you clearly dont even mean it? No it is not a big deal
if you call me at 8:30 instead of 5:30. It is no bigdeal at all for you at all. Who cares what I said to Nanu he is my little dog, I will meet him anytime and he will still love me as much.
Then today you tell me you would sms me when you get time, and then what ? You didnt get time to even call? Or maybe you didnt call cause really what do you have to say in return
what will you speak to me? Right? Like last night you clearly asked me what I wanted from that conversation, whereas you had you point very clear, and it was "Nanu I am here partying
with whoever I want and I dont want you around, and wtf. will you do." thats exactly what it meant.
June I can honestly say I dont think you have even read my mail, cause if you have any dignity in yourself or your words or actions, or any respect for me you would not treat me this way.
June you yourself know you dont treat me fairly, why June what have I done?
How much will you hurt me June how much? Honestly tell me was it not enough the first time? You know I love you so much that I change my life for you,
then why do you play with me life? Why do you play with me like this? June yes I hurt you alot in the last 2 years and I have suffered a lot for it, you have no idea what I ahve gone thru,
and really it is my sincer hope that you never have to even see anyone going thru that. I was so shattered I could not work, I could not eat, I had to go on vacation, I wrote to you ever
day of my life, I wrote so much that even when I go thru my sent mails it brings a tear to realise what I went thru, I stopped going out to clubs in pune cause I might see you, I started going to
bombay everyweekend to be away from YOU!!! you didnt have to sleep in the same bed we made love in and shared for years, you didnt have to take care of the cat or the fish we got together,
you didnt have to live where we did, it all changed for you and you got over it, but nothing fucin changed for me.
Then why do you have to do this to me again? June is it fun to see me like this for you? Is it fun to see someone so hurt for you. I know it might give you an ego boost that
somoene is so in love with you, but are you being fair to him? And now you tell me I FORCED you to come by, where as you neevr wanted. How would I feel about that?
June wtf. is this all about June what the fuck is it about? Is it about revenge? Is it for your kicks? was all this to see if I have become good enough for you? June whatever you
are doing you are playing with my life June, you are playing with my life and you know it so very well, you even know how you drive me psycho. Why June, please again I just tell you to have mercy on me,
I know I have hurt you in the past but if you cant tell I am not back in your life to do that, I only love you still so dont do this to me June dont do this to me. I never ever treated you like this over and over agian.
You hate to see me cry or is that too a lie? How much have you lied to me you know?
Then to top it all just before leaving you give me hug and tell me that everything is ok between us. Like that is supposed to make me feel better, you probably hugged and kissed,
endless number of guys at the party, so waht should one more for me make any difference? June I am human, and I love you, you can treat me however you want June, I am not going
to say anything, cause you know I have this weakness for you, but you also know you are not bein fair to me, and you know what that too is fine, I believe in Karma, maybe I deserve this
for some sins of mine, or maybe one day you would get treated the way you treat me by someone. June dont do this to me, dont kill me over and over again.
You have no idea what I go thru June you have no idea, dont play with me like this please. Have some mercy June have some mercy, dont treat me this way, I have not done any crime
that you are doing this to me. This past month all I have done is tried to keep you happy.
One day before valentines you tell me you would like to see me, I like a retard go out and am so happy,
Go out get whatever you wished for, and believe that you are on your college trip. Later I learn it is all lies you tell me,
I dont say anything yes I am mad at you for lieing to me, but what can I say right? I am no one to you. Like a retard I go
and smell all the perfumes you wanted, and choose something we both liked and in return I get what from you June,
I get lies from you telling me you on a college trip.
Then you come back, and you call me accuse me of telling your Mom etc, I dont say anything even then.
Then you spend time with me, and we say we will make things better between us and see where it leads us,
and yes I feel we are making progress.
Then you mail Pawan from my place thinking I am a sleep, and even though I know about it, you constantly lie to me about it,
I dont say anything even though I know you lie to me so much to my face, even when I confront you, you lie to me about it.
Why June, what do you want from me?
Then YOU tell me you would like to come out partying even when Aliya etc are in town with me, as we are trying to make
things better and who cared as long as we were happy together, that very night you again push me away, slam the door on me
and throw me out of your house!! I am really upset that day too and you know it, but the next day I didnt say anything did I?
Infact I called you again, like a retard cause you said you were sorry, and we go out to Gaia etc and then again you tell me you
dont want to be close to me in public cause maybe I am not good enough for you now, caue maybe when yuo with me you dont
get the attention from all other men, or maybe I will ask who they are. Why did you want to meet Aliya etc and chill with me last
weekend if you anyway wanted nothing from me? Do you know what it has been not only for me, but from Aliya and Aly when you left me it
wasn't really nice you know and they both were really on my side and for you I even lied to my closet friends, and explained to them that we
are happy together etc, I didnt explain to them lies did I?
Then we have a nice week together, you call me for dinner even, and come by whenever you want too, and we spend so much time together,
We make love, and hold eachother close you give me silence in return to my I love you's and still I hold you close, and not even shed a tear,
believing that somehow somewhere you too do love me, and then a few hours later I am again no one to you?
We spend all week together, we hug at the station, and I drop you off, and you seem happy, I even had tears in my eyes dropping you off,
but to you they don't mean anything you tell me I am not your boyfriend and thats why I can't come, I dont say anything I simply accept what my fate is,
and drive back to my office, who cares about me right as long as Cinderella/SnowWhite/SleepingBeauty is having fun. I even go out get you whatever you might need there,
your lenses, we look for your cream I try to get you anything you might need there to be happy and have fun. You tell me you will call how many times?
And really I can probably count the number of times you have called me on one hand. You tell me you didnt have your phone and missed me, why June when
you actions speak so much louder than words? Why June do you do this to me?
You get back, I pick you up cause yes I missed you a lot, and I ask you if it is possible to maybe spend the day with you? What do you do?
You dont even care if I am taking a day off to spend with you, and do things YOU want to do. What do you do? You simply forget all about it and pass out?
Do you know how I feel to call your Mom and ask for you? It is horrible but I thought you wanted to see me thats why...And then again what do I do? NOTHING
I dont even say anything, yes I am a bit hurt that I take a day off for you, when you know I am not really allowed to, and you dont even care.
Then the next day you cal and come by, you offer to pick me up and even drop me off. You come by and chill on facebook, and play on the comp and are gone
before or as soon as I get home, how should I feel, should I feel you came to meet me or to update your facebook, and play your games? I want to spend time wth you,
so I even like to go shoppinjg with your Mom just cause I want to learn more about you, justcause I want to understand you better, just cause I want to break the walls we
have built, I try to do everything June.
Then we go out wth your friends, it is fine with me I am happy as long as you are. I dont come close to you or even touch you. Why June thought I wanted to
it is cause you had warned me before not to do so. And I keep my distance, and stil that is too much for you. If you dont remember I told you I didnt want to go out with you,
cause I feel you just push me away and it is not nice try to remember. Did I not discuss that? But who cares right as long as you are having fun.
Then we dont get 5 mins together maybe all day on saturday when you even promised we would do something for us that night, and what is that something for us June, it
is somehting for you and Mr XYZ whoever you pick for the night, and tell me I am not good enough to enter with you. I am good enough to make love to you, or for you have
sex with you but I am not good enough to be seen around in public with you? Think about how you treat me.
You sent me atleast 5 I am sorry yesterday for not spending time with me, for what June? Why do you apologise to me, when you clearly dont even mean it? No it is not a big deal
if you call me at 8:30 instead of 5:30. It is no bigdeal at all for you at all. Who cares what I said to Nanu he is my little dog, I will meet him anytime and he will still love me as much.
Then today you tell me you would sms me when you get time, and then what ? You didnt get time to even call? Or maybe you didnt call cause really what do you have to say in return
what will you speak to me? Right? Like last night you clearly asked me what I wanted from that conversation, whereas you had you point very clear, and it was "Nanu I am here partying
with whoever I want and I dont want you around, and wtf. will you do." thats exactly what it meant.
June I can honestly say I dont think you have even read my mail, cause if you have any dignity in yourself or your words or actions, or any respect for me you would not treat me this way.
June you yourself know you dont treat me fairly, why June what have I done?
How much will you hurt me June how much? Honestly tell me was it not enough the first time? You know I love you so much that I change my life for you,
then why do you play with me life? Why do you play with me like this? June yes I hurt you alot in the last 2 years and I have suffered a lot for it, you have no idea what I ahve gone thru,
and really it is my sincer hope that you never have to even see anyone going thru that. I was so shattered I could not work, I could not eat, I had to go on vacation, I wrote to you ever
day of my life, I wrote so much that even when I go thru my sent mails it brings a tear to realise what I went thru, I stopped going out to clubs in pune cause I might see you, I started going to
bombay everyweekend to be away from YOU!!! you didnt have to sleep in the same bed we made love in and shared for years, you didnt have to take care of the cat or the fish we got together,
you didnt have to live where we did, it all changed for you and you got over it, but nothing fucin changed for me.
Then why do you have to do this to me again? June is it fun to see me like this for you? Is it fun to see someone so hurt for you. I know it might give you an ego boost that
somoene is so in love with you, but are you being fair to him? And now you tell me I FORCED you to come by, where as you neevr wanted. How would I feel about that?
June wtf. is this all about June what the fuck is it about? Is it about revenge? Is it for your kicks? was all this to see if I have become good enough for you? June whatever you
are doing you are playing with my life June, you are playing with my life and you know it so very well, you even know how you drive me psycho. Why June, please again I just tell you to have mercy on me,
I know I have hurt you in the past but if you cant tell I am not back in your life to do that, I only love you still so dont do this to me June dont do this to me. I never ever treated you like this over and over agian.
You hate to see me cry or is that too a lie? How much have you lied to me you know?
Then to top it all just before leaving you give me hug and tell me that everything is ok between us. Like that is supposed to make me feel better, you probably hugged and kissed,
endless number of guys at the party, so waht should one more for me make any difference? June I am human, and I love you, you can treat me however you want June, I am not going
to say anything, cause you know I have this weakness for you, but you also know you are not bein fair to me, and you know what that too is fine, I believe in Karma, maybe I deserve this
for some sins of mine, or maybe one day you would get treated the way you treat me by someone. June dont do this to me, dont kill me over and over again.
You have no idea what I go thru June you have no idea, dont play with me like this please. Have some mercy June have some mercy, dont treat me this way, I have not done any crime
that you are doing this to me. This past month all I have done is tried to keep you happy.
Saturday, March 14, 2009
Holy Fuck!!
Holy Fuck. What a day more like what a wonderful last 24 hours have been. I am quite amazed. till now I really did try so so hard for everything, I tried to to make her laugh and keep her happy every second she was around. I tried to understand her, and tried to change myself for her. I don't know what is the short coming in me I guess that I can't keep her happy.
Last night she had to sms another random guy, and plan to meet him today at NM, and then ofcourse she does not want to go out with me tonight. After all that she said to me yesterday about being with me today and spending time cause I was cheesed off about last night being with her friends. Anyway so now she has a huge fight with me and tells me how she wants her space and doesn't want me around. And how she wants to go to NM with her friends and NOT me at all.
But what can I do really what can I do? Really I am helpless, am I not? I have to take all this from her I have no choice. If I even say a word she will simply reply to me like she did: "Fine don't ever see me again." And then I have nothing. Well she even asked me what I wantd more: Her this way or her not at all. So I know for me this is a lose lose situation, I don't even know why I am in it.
Last night she had to sms another random guy, and plan to meet him today at NM, and then ofcourse she does not want to go out with me tonight. After all that she said to me yesterday about being with me today and spending time cause I was cheesed off about last night being with her friends. Anyway so now she has a huge fight with me and tells me how she wants her space and doesn't want me around. And how she wants to go to NM with her friends and NOT me at all.
But what can I do really what can I do? Really I am helpless, am I not? I have to take all this from her I have no choice. If I even say a word she will simply reply to me like she did: "Fine don't ever see me again." And then I have nothing. Well she even asked me what I wantd more: Her this way or her not at all. So I know for me this is a lose lose situation, I don't even know why I am in it.
Tuesday, March 3, 2009
Who is confused..?
Out of my 20 lines you read only 3 only about Goa and being rude ??
At first I didn't reply cause you would only write back to me about how I get everything wrong, or might get mad and not meet me, but anyway if and when we meet we would not talk about any of this. Cause I relly didnt want to bring this up at all.
June you ask me why am I insecure? Does that question even make sense to us or me. Being insecure is for people seeing eachother in all honesty I don't even know where I really stand for you June. I love you, and I feel you do too to some extent, a tiny winy bit atleast. Ask yourself do you think I should feel secure in our relation with eachother ??
June why do you say I feel everything you do is wrong? What have I said to you June? I never said a thing about you going to Goa yes I was upset to learn that from someone else, but I didnt say anything to you? You even blamed me for everything still I didn't really get mad at you. Infact I believed everything you said to me after you got back, in some wierd way I was really proud of you too and even told you that.
And about you going to Goa this time, again I am no one your Mom and Dad are fine with it, who am I to question you or say anything? June I dont even know where we stand thats why I dont even know how to react or what to say or what to do. You simply say that is because I am confused, but at the end of the day June it is you, it is you who is ocnfused, I know how much I love you and what I feel about you, it is you who is confused.
But June we didn't come here to figure out if we are confused or not, and neither to make a decision about anything
At first I didn't reply cause you would only write back to me about how I get everything wrong, or might get mad and not meet me, but anyway if and when we meet we would not talk about any of this. Cause I relly didnt want to bring this up at all.
June you ask me why am I insecure? Does that question even make sense to us or me. Being insecure is for people seeing eachother in all honesty I don't even know where I really stand for you June. I love you, and I feel you do too to some extent, a tiny winy bit atleast. Ask yourself do you think I should feel secure in our relation with eachother ??
June why do you say I feel everything you do is wrong? What have I said to you June? I never said a thing about you going to Goa yes I was upset to learn that from someone else, but I didnt say anything to you? You even blamed me for everything still I didn't really get mad at you. Infact I believed everything you said to me after you got back, in some wierd way I was really proud of you too and even told you that.
And about you going to Goa this time, again I am no one your Mom and Dad are fine with it, who am I to question you or say anything? June I dont even know where we stand thats why I dont even know how to react or what to say or what to do. You simply say that is because I am confused, but at the end of the day June it is you, it is you who is ocnfused, I know how much I love you and what I feel about you, it is you who is confused.
But June we didn't come here to figure out if we are confused or not, and neither to make a decision about anything
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