Why do you build me up Buttercup, baby
Just to let me down and mess me around
And then worst of all you never call, baby
When you say you will but I love you still
I need you more than anyone, darlin'
You know that I have from the start
So build me up Buttercup, don't break my heart
"I'll be over at ten", you told me time and again
But you're late, I wait around and then
I run to the door, I can't take any more
It's not you, you let me down again
Baby, baby, try to find
A little time, and I'll make you happy
I'll be home
I'll be beside the phone waiting for you
Why do you build me up ,Buttercup, baby
Just to let me down , and mess me around
And then worst of all , you never call, baby
When you say you will , but I love you still
I need you , more than anyone, darlin'
You know that I have from the start
So build me up , Buttercup, don't break my heart
You were my toy but I could be the boy you adore
If you'd just let me know ,
Although you're untrue, I'm attracted to you all the more
Why do I need you so
Baby, baby, try to find
A little time and I'll make you happy
I'll be home
I'll be beside the phone waiting for you
Why do you build me up Buttercup, baby
Just to let me down and mess me around
And then worst of all you never call, baby
When you say you will but I love you still
I need you more than anyone, darlin'
You know that I have from the start
So build me up Buttercup, don't break my heart
Friday, February 27, 2009
Friday, February 20, 2009
Unrequited Love?
- "A mighty pain to love it is,
- And 'tis a pain that pain to miss;
- But of all pains, the greatest pain
- It is to love, but love in vain."
Monday, February 9, 2009
God have mercy on me
...before a dream is realized, the Soul of the World tests everything that was learned along the way. It does this not because it is evil, but so that we can, in addition to realizing our dreams, master the lessons we've learned as we've
moved toward that dream. That's the point at which most people give up. It's the point at which, as we say in the language of the desert, one 'dies of thirst just when the palm trees have appeared on the horizon.' "Every search begins with beginner's luck. And every search ends with the victor's being severely tested." The boy remembered an old proverb from his country. It said that the darkest hour of the night came just before the dawn.
-Pg 74 The Alchemist
God have mercy on me. Please God have mercy on me. I really can't take this anymore. This is much more painful than anything else, I am sure even death is less painful, atleast death comes and takes one away, then all the pain and suffering is over, but this way there is only pain and suffering and it just doesn't stop, it just doesnt get any easier. Its been over a hundred days and I am still the same. God don't test me like this I am not that strong. I am not that strong. You showed me so much happiness why did you take it all away.
You took my grandma and I couldn't even say bye to her, I was in school, and couldn't even see her. You gave my Mom hell after that I never complained. You took my Grandpa away and I was strong thru it all, and I still didnt complain. I only asked you why once and then I left my life to you. You let my Dad down and put him thru a hard time and I still didnt complain I still believed life had better days for us all. I left my Mom and Dad and all my family and have lived most life on my own searching for someone to call my own, searching for someone who I would never have to part with. You know me God I am created by you, just like everyone else, so then why did you make me so sensitive and so emotional when you had to separate me form everyone in my life? When all you have done to me made me find people who I really love deeply and then always make me part from them? How do I see that this life is fair? I am the weakest with my heart and you always hurt me there? What lessons you want from me God. What do you want from me? This is not fair this is not fair at all.
I am not that strong God, please take me away form this world, I dont want to stand any more of your tests. I dont want to go thru another day in this world on my own, I have been lonely enough, and I dont want to go thru life this way. I know I ave lost the one person who I loved the most now I dont want to live. Take me away somehow, I dont want to wake up tomorrow, please make tonite the last. I am sorry I give up. PLease take me away, take me away where I have no feelings.
moved toward that dream. That's the point at which most people give up. It's the point at which, as we say in the language of the desert, one 'dies of thirst just when the palm trees have appeared on the horizon.' "Every search begins with beginner's luck. And every search ends with the victor's being severely tested." The boy remembered an old proverb from his country. It said that the darkest hour of the night came just before the dawn.
-Pg 74 The Alchemist
God have mercy on me. Please God have mercy on me. I really can't take this anymore. This is much more painful than anything else, I am sure even death is less painful, atleast death comes and takes one away, then all the pain and suffering is over, but this way there is only pain and suffering and it just doesn't stop, it just doesnt get any easier. Its been over a hundred days and I am still the same. God don't test me like this I am not that strong. I am not that strong. You showed me so much happiness why did you take it all away.
You took my grandma and I couldn't even say bye to her, I was in school, and couldn't even see her. You gave my Mom hell after that I never complained. You took my Grandpa away and I was strong thru it all, and I still didnt complain. I only asked you why once and then I left my life to you. You let my Dad down and put him thru a hard time and I still didnt complain I still believed life had better days for us all. I left my Mom and Dad and all my family and have lived most life on my own searching for someone to call my own, searching for someone who I would never have to part with. You know me God I am created by you, just like everyone else, so then why did you make me so sensitive and so emotional when you had to separate me form everyone in my life? When all you have done to me made me find people who I really love deeply and then always make me part from them? How do I see that this life is fair? I am the weakest with my heart and you always hurt me there? What lessons you want from me God. What do you want from me? This is not fair this is not fair at all.
I am not that strong God, please take me away form this world, I dont want to stand any more of your tests. I dont want to go thru another day in this world on my own, I have been lonely enough, and I dont want to go thru life this way. I know I ave lost the one person who I loved the most now I dont want to live. Take me away somehow, I dont want to wake up tomorrow, please make tonite the last. I am sorry I give up. PLease take me away, take me away where I have no feelings.
Sunday, February 8, 2009
I dont want to hurt anymore.
I dont want to hurt anymore.I dont want to hurt anymore.I dont want to hurt anymore.I dont want to hurt anymore.I dont want to hurt anymore.I dont want to hurt anymore.I dont want to hurt anymore.I dont want to hurt anymore.I dont want to hurt anymore.I dont want to hurt anymore.I dont want to hurt anymore.I dont want to hurt anymore.I dont want to hurt anymore.
I dont want to suffer anymore.I dont want to suffer anymore.I dont want to suffer anymore.I dont want to suffer anymore.I dont want to suffer anymore.I dont want to suffer anymore.I dont want to suffer anymore.I dont want to suffer anymore.I dont want to suffer anymore.I dont want to suffer anymore.I dont want to suffer anymore.I dont want to suffer anymore.I dont want to suffer anymore.I dont want to suffer anymore.I dont want to suffer anymore.
I dont want this feeling no more. I dont want this feeling no more. I dont want this feeling no more. I dont want this feeling no more. I dont want this feeling no more. I dont want this feeling no more. I dont want this feeling no more. I dont want this feeling no more. I dont want this feeling no more. I dont want this feeling no more. I dont want this feeling no more. I dont want this feeling no more.
I hate this. I hate this. I hate this. I hate this. I hate this. I hate this. I hate this. I hate this. I hate this. I hate this. I hate this. I hate this. I hate this. I hate this. I hate this. I hate this. I hate this. I hate this. I hate this. I hate this. I hate this. I hate this. I hate this. I hate this. I hate this. I hate this. I hate this.
Why me? Why me? Why me? Why me? Why me? Why me? Why me? Why me? Why me? Why me? Why me? Why me? Why me? Why me? Why me? Why me? Why me? Why me? Why me? Why me? Why me?
I dont want to suffer anymore.I dont want to suffer anymore.I dont want to suffer anymore.I dont want to suffer anymore.I dont want to suffer anymore.I dont want to suffer anymore.I dont want to suffer anymore.I dont want to suffer anymore.I dont want to suffer anymore.I dont want to suffer anymore.I dont want to suffer anymore.I dont want to suffer anymore.I dont want to suffer anymore.I dont want to suffer anymore.I dont want to suffer anymore.
I dont want this feeling no more. I dont want this feeling no more. I dont want this feeling no more. I dont want this feeling no more. I dont want this feeling no more. I dont want this feeling no more. I dont want this feeling no more. I dont want this feeling no more. I dont want this feeling no more. I dont want this feeling no more. I dont want this feeling no more. I dont want this feeling no more.
I hate this. I hate this. I hate this. I hate this. I hate this. I hate this. I hate this. I hate this. I hate this. I hate this. I hate this. I hate this. I hate this. I hate this. I hate this. I hate this. I hate this. I hate this. I hate this. I hate this. I hate this. I hate this. I hate this. I hate this. I hate this. I hate this. I hate this.
Why me? Why me? Why me? Why me? Why me? Why me? Why me? Why me? Why me? Why me? Why me? Why me? Why me? Why me? Why me? Why me? Why me? Why me? Why me? Why me? Why me?
This life is not fair ..
This life is not fair not fucking fair at all.
What have I done? What the hell have I done wrong? What crime did I commit in this life or the past? God I ask you that? Today I am really really angry not at anything but fate itself.
What have I done wrong? What is my fault in this? The why the fuck do I have to suffer?
Since the day I met this girl all I did was care about her. When I met her I had no one but I was happy in my life, and I met this girl at first I never thought much about it, but Yes I must admit I was taken a back but her broken smile, to me she had so much to say in her eyes ( and yet she covered her eyes in lenses which I hated.) People tell me I have enchanting eyes, but trust me she has the world in hers. I was in love the moment those brown eyes looked into me the first time. And yet I was baffled. And her lips, more like her smile, to me it was a broken smile that said so much about her, where she had been and what she felt. Her black hair that she hated is as dense as the desert sand, beautiful. And I would love to run my fingers through them. What I feel in love the most was none of these things, it wasn't her hair, or her eyes, or her smile, to me it was how she made me feel. The first time she walked into the house, I somehow knew it was for a while. And I secretly wished that she would never leave. I knew I was in love with her. I was in love with her, she was the cutest thing I had come across and I somehow she knew she had my heart. Even I didn't know it would be this way. I didn't know what the futur had for me and her, I really didnt want to know I was so happy in the present with her that I really didn't care. It really didn't matter to me, I was in love and I had learnt to care about something else much more than me, to me all of a sudden life had a new meaning, it was to keep her happy it was to keep her away form being sad and it was to keep her tears away.
Yes I know somewhere along the way I lost it all, I know I have hurt her too by my actions and I know that I could not be half the man she wanted me to be. I know I didnt give her the things she needed to have and maybe we both lost our way I dont know.
All I know is I dont deserve this. I really don't. This is so so unfair. What have I really done? I have only loved her. I have never cheated on her, never even had the iontentions to infact. I have never lied to her, it seems impossible, but really I never have. There was not one night when she didnt have food, or comfort. I held her each night that we were together even though we fought. I tursted her no matter what the world said to me, and I still somehow do, maybe love is blind I dont know. I kissed her each morning, and always told her I loved her more than she did. Yes I never bought flowers, or cards, or went for a movie or did a lot of romantic things I am sorry.
But why do I have to suffer? Why do I have to still ahve tears in me for her? What did I do wrong? Pleople believe in Karma, and that we pay for our lives in this life itself, so God where the fuck is the Justice? Why do I ahve to suffer? What did I do? What did I do wrong? What did I do wrong? I want to know? I really want to know God? Did I not show her that i wanted her for life? Did I love her less? If so I dont think I can love anyone more.
What did I do? What the hell did I do to deserve this life and this pain? I have never hurt anyone, even my ex girlfriends I have never tried to intentinally hurt anyone I ahve always been an honest person and I ahve always been true to the poeple i care about.
What di I do wrong to deserve this what did I do?
What did I do?
Whenever she cried I was there to wipe her tears, then when I have tears why is there no one? Why is there no one? Why is this so unfair? Don't I have feelings? Doesn't she have any feelings? I know her feelings died for me long before she left me, but doesn't the time we shared mean anything to her, it sickens me to think that the time we spent together means nothing to her, it makes me lose my faith in love and live itself, tha peopel can be so cold and so indifferent. Maybe some people have more emotions than others, maybe some people feel love and life a lot more than others. Others maybe just go thru life to name emotions and dont really feel them. I dont know, but it really destroys my faith in love and life. More than anything I feel betrayed, and let down, cause the only thing I believed in for so long the only thing I cared about, the only thing that I thought wont let me down, eventually became astray. I now even find it hard to even believe in anything, or in myself, cause I have started to doubt me after that, I had all my faith and all my beliefs in her, in the fact that I was too loved in return and that I was too card about in return. I was so wrong. Where should I look for faith in life now, or faith in love now?
How can one say life is fair?
What have I done? What the hell have I done wrong? What crime did I commit in this life or the past? God I ask you that? Today I am really really angry not at anything but fate itself.
What have I done wrong? What is my fault in this? The why the fuck do I have to suffer?
Since the day I met this girl all I did was care about her. When I met her I had no one but I was happy in my life, and I met this girl at first I never thought much about it, but Yes I must admit I was taken a back but her broken smile, to me she had so much to say in her eyes ( and yet she covered her eyes in lenses which I hated.) People tell me I have enchanting eyes, but trust me she has the world in hers. I was in love the moment those brown eyes looked into me the first time. And yet I was baffled. And her lips, more like her smile, to me it was a broken smile that said so much about her, where she had been and what she felt. Her black hair that she hated is as dense as the desert sand, beautiful. And I would love to run my fingers through them. What I feel in love the most was none of these things, it wasn't her hair, or her eyes, or her smile, to me it was how she made me feel. The first time she walked into the house, I somehow knew it was for a while. And I secretly wished that she would never leave. I knew I was in love with her. I was in love with her, she was the cutest thing I had come across and I somehow she knew she had my heart. Even I didn't know it would be this way. I didn't know what the futur had for me and her, I really didnt want to know I was so happy in the present with her that I really didn't care. It really didn't matter to me, I was in love and I had learnt to care about something else much more than me, to me all of a sudden life had a new meaning, it was to keep her happy it was to keep her away form being sad and it was to keep her tears away.
Yes I know somewhere along the way I lost it all, I know I have hurt her too by my actions and I know that I could not be half the man she wanted me to be. I know I didnt give her the things she needed to have and maybe we both lost our way I dont know.
All I know is I dont deserve this. I really don't. This is so so unfair. What have I really done? I have only loved her. I have never cheated on her, never even had the iontentions to infact. I have never lied to her, it seems impossible, but really I never have. There was not one night when she didnt have food, or comfort. I held her each night that we were together even though we fought. I tursted her no matter what the world said to me, and I still somehow do, maybe love is blind I dont know. I kissed her each morning, and always told her I loved her more than she did. Yes I never bought flowers, or cards, or went for a movie or did a lot of romantic things I am sorry.
But why do I have to suffer? Why do I have to still ahve tears in me for her? What did I do wrong? Pleople believe in Karma, and that we pay for our lives in this life itself, so God where the fuck is the Justice? Why do I ahve to suffer? What did I do? What did I do wrong? What did I do wrong? I want to know? I really want to know God? Did I not show her that i wanted her for life? Did I love her less? If so I dont think I can love anyone more.
What did I do? What the hell did I do to deserve this life and this pain? I have never hurt anyone, even my ex girlfriends I have never tried to intentinally hurt anyone I ahve always been an honest person and I ahve always been true to the poeple i care about.
What di I do wrong to deserve this what did I do?
What did I do?
Whenever she cried I was there to wipe her tears, then when I have tears why is there no one? Why is there no one? Why is this so unfair? Don't I have feelings? Doesn't she have any feelings? I know her feelings died for me long before she left me, but doesn't the time we shared mean anything to her, it sickens me to think that the time we spent together means nothing to her, it makes me lose my faith in love and live itself, tha peopel can be so cold and so indifferent. Maybe some people have more emotions than others, maybe some people feel love and life a lot more than others. Others maybe just go thru life to name emotions and dont really feel them. I dont know, but it really destroys my faith in love and life. More than anything I feel betrayed, and let down, cause the only thing I believed in for so long the only thing I cared about, the only thing that I thought wont let me down, eventually became astray. I now even find it hard to even believe in anything, or in myself, cause I have started to doubt me after that, I had all my faith and all my beliefs in her, in the fact that I was too loved in return and that I was too card about in return. I was so wrong. Where should I look for faith in life now, or faith in love now?
How can one say life is fair?
Friday, February 6, 2009
Monday, February 2, 2009
...Still not over you.
http://in.youtube.com/watch?v=ttaBmjPtOd0
Whats up? I know we haven't spoken for a while
But I was thinkin bout you And it kinda made me smile
So many things to say And I'll put em in a letter
Thought it might be easier The words might come out better
How's your mother, how's your little brother? Does he still look just like you?
So many things I wanna know the answers to Wish I could press rewind
And rewrite every line To the story of me and you
Don't you know I've tried and I've tried To get you out my mind
But it don't get no better As each day goes by
And I'm lost and confused I've got nothing to lose
Hope to hear from you soon
P.S. I'm still not over you Still not over you
Excuse me, I really didn't mean to ramble on
But there's a lot of feelings that remain since you've been gone
I guess you thought that I would put it all behind me
But it seems there's always something right there to remind me
Like a silly joke, or something on the t.v.
Boy it ain't easy When I hear our song
I get that same old feeling Wish I could press rewind
Turn back the hands of time And I shouldn't be telling you
Don't you know I've tried and I've tried To get you out my mind
But it don't get no better As each day goes by
And I'm lost and confused I've got nothing to lose
Hope to hear from you soon
P.S. I'm still not over you Still not over you
Did you know I kept all of your pictures
Don't have the strength to part with them yet
Tried to erase the way your kisses taste But some things a girl can never forget
Don't you know I've tried and I've tried To get you out my mind
But it don't get no better As each day goes by
And I'm lost and confused I've got nothin to lose
Hope to hear from you soon
P.S. I'm still not over you Still not over you
-Rihanna
Whats up? I know we haven't spoken for a while
But I was thinkin bout you And it kinda made me smile
So many things to say And I'll put em in a letter
Thought it might be easier The words might come out better
How's your mother, how's your little brother? Does he still look just like you?
So many things I wanna know the answers to Wish I could press rewind
And rewrite every line To the story of me and you
Don't you know I've tried and I've tried To get you out my mind
But it don't get no better As each day goes by
And I'm lost and confused I've got nothing to lose
Hope to hear from you soon
P.S. I'm still not over you Still not over you
Excuse me, I really didn't mean to ramble on
But there's a lot of feelings that remain since you've been gone
I guess you thought that I would put it all behind me
But it seems there's always something right there to remind me
Like a silly joke, or something on the t.v.
Boy it ain't easy When I hear our song
I get that same old feeling Wish I could press rewind
Turn back the hands of time And I shouldn't be telling you
Don't you know I've tried and I've tried To get you out my mind
But it don't get no better As each day goes by
And I'm lost and confused I've got nothing to lose
Hope to hear from you soon
P.S. I'm still not over you Still not over you
Did you know I kept all of your pictures
Don't have the strength to part with them yet
Tried to erase the way your kisses taste But some things a girl can never forget
Don't you know I've tried and I've tried To get you out my mind
But it don't get no better As each day goes by
And I'm lost and confused I've got nothin to lose
Hope to hear from you soon
P.S. I'm still not over you Still not over you
-Rihanna
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